My Poker Nemesis

So the reason i'm writing this blog and the reason i'm no longer playing $200NL (I will get round to that story) is because of "My Poker Nemesis". This Nemesis is of course myself. When I play great I play great. However I have a really bad habit of tilting really bad. My biggest challenge right now is my mental game and overcoming my poker demons. Emotions have no place at a poker table and only lead to leaking money you shouldn't. My main aim of this blog is to be honest with myself about my weaknesses in poker and how I overcome them to go from a marginal winner to a big winner. If I played my A game every day and sometimes my B game then I would be a big winner. But I always have those days when I have my F game, I tilt like a monkey and spew 10 or so buy ins. Which is hours and hours of grinding playing my A and B game.

My good friend Wota said it doesn't matter how good your A and B games are if your F game means you spew 10 buy ins. So I suggest you work on your F game. So here I am, trying to overcome myself at the poker table.

Live is not an issue, I never tilt live and I always win. I've had some massive wins like £2,500 in one night in the Radission casino in Sofia Bulgaria. I was off my face drunk playing £200 min buy in Pot Limit Hold Em with a subdued bunch of Bulgarians and a Texan. I soon sobered up with lots of water and latte. For some reason they thought because I was drunk and didn't know how to calculate the pot bet I was some kind of fish and tried to bully me around. In the end I just told the dealer every time I shout pot you tell me how much I need to bet. The dealer was sat direct to my left and had no issues in doing so. 4,600 lev later after a buy in of 500 lev the game broke up when i left as I seem to have drained all the money out of it. GG me.

But I guess my point is this. It's much easier to tilt when you are sat in front of a computer. When you are staring your opponent int he face you feel a bit silly when you start steaming. Plus when you are face to face you don't say anythign about it. I think that's the trigger for me. I mutter fucking donkey or start typing in chat and the emotions are released and i've gone over that very precarious edge.

I willf inish with today's action. I lost of course. Mainly because I steamed a bit and because the guy's i played ran like god. Running great and playing a steaming opponent is like a gift from god. How could they loose. :)

My stats for your pleasure - Doh!!!!


I'm going to play some live poker at Dusk Till Dawn tonight in Nottingham. Hopefully i'll fair a bit better and no steaming I hope.